I didn't study today for tomorrow's examination. Or today's examination, rather.

It's past midnight and I've been trying to focus on my notes to no avail.

It isn't helping much that I'm feeling extremely unprepared. I feel very bad because I know I'm not going to do well at all for this paper.

I feel especially bad for letting Mrs Vora down because she's been really nice throughout this entire time we've been uncooperative assholes.

As much as I like TKAM as a book and have grown to like it more since I've begun to understand it, I absolutely detest having to study it for an examination, because it's too much information for me to absorb.

And honestly, I don't really care about the innumerable characteristics Atticus possesses, neither do I give a shit about how Maudie Atkinson parallels Atticus. And I don't know why I need to learn the exact same lessons Jem and Scout learn from Atticus, Maudie, Calpurnia, and a million other characters in the book through billions of incidents.

I am not Jem, nor Scout.

And my nose hurts.